For the last 6 weeks or so things have been “off” for me. I have not been able to sleep, I have had no energy – either physical or mental, and I have had no motivation in regards to losing weight.
The lack of sleep has been tough because it’s not due to stress or staying up late to work. I have been getting into bed between 9:30 and 10 pm, but not falling asleep for 2 or 3 hours after that! It’s not that my mind is running with a bunch of plans or thoughts, it’s that I can’t physically get comfortable.
I am finding that my limbs are falling asleep after laying on one side for a little while. I haven’t changed anything in my sleep position, so I really don’t know what’s going on. Even after I fall asleep I am waking up every few hours due to the pain of my limbs falling asleep.
I estimate that I am getting about 3 to 4 hours of real sleep each night, which is having an impact on everything else.
I haven’t been able to stick to my schedule of waking up at 4am in order to have devotions and then work out. So what is happening is that I am waking up very late and only having time for devotions. So I am now doing my weight training in the evenings after work. I am running when I can, which is about 2 or 3 times a week right now.
Unfortunately, I am not getting in my cardio workouts (outside of the running). My normal schedule is weight training on Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday, and cardio (usually H.I.I.T.) every day except Wednesday and Sunday (my off days). So this lack of sleep has lead to me missing 5 days of cardio a week!
On top of the actual loss of time, I have experienced a loss of motivation as well. Honestly, that’s the answer to why I don’t just get in my cardio in the evenings when I miss it in the mornings. I have been physically and mentally fatigued and it takes a lot for me to just push through the things that I have to do (like manage our finances).
With things that I thoroughly enjoy – such as spending time with loved ones, preparing lessons and teaching in church, and lifting weights – I have had no problem putting my mind to them. However, with the things that I do just because I know they are beneficial – managing our finances, intense cardio, being extremely disciplined with food choices, and trying to address huge issues – it has become very hard to push myself to do them.
I have to manage our finances or we will suffer greatly, so I have no choice there. But these other things are overwhelming me because I am so fatigued. My writing has slowed down because it takes a lot out of me to write. Also, I have to make some big decisions about many of my websites in the very near future as well as other things that will take serious planning and creative thinking. Since I am not creative and I generally hate building things on my own, this lack of motivation is winning in this area as well.
Another thing that I have noticed is that my short-term memory is failing me at times. I’m noticing it more and more, and so I began to worry that this may be due to a hormonal imbalance, a micro-nutrient deficiency (or toxicity), or a thyroid problem.
I saw my doctor yesterday, and she believes that all of my symptoms are due to a lack of sleep. She took blood and is running tests to make sure it’s none of the things that I was worried about, but in the meantime, she is treating my lack of sleep.
I am doing some natural things to address the sleep issues, but it’s hard to pinpoint since the issues aren’t mental (my mind isn’t stressed or racing), but instead stem from me not being able to physically get comfortable or settled at night; and when I do, my limbs are falling asleep and causing me pain.
Anyway, that’s my story and I will update you as soon as there are any changes.
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